MBA promise to MOM

I am officially done with my MBA program. I am so happy. I promise my mom I would finish my MBA and glad I was able to keep that promise to her. Even with her gone, I can still feel her near and I know this would have been one of the happiest moments for her and me.. Sometimes in life you have to make choice that place your own goals on hold. I am just glad I was able to go back and finish. This one is for your MOM.. RIP....

Graduation Count Down

THe last time I wrote on my blog was about year ago this time. I have been up to a lot since my last entry. I had to do make a painful decision about my granny. I had to put her in a nursing home because she needed 24 hour care. I thought it was painful but she since she has been in the nursing home they have really taken care of her. I very please with the staff and granny is able to be around surrounding loving bunch 24 hours a day. My next journey was I decided to go and get my A+ certification. I decided to reach out for the certification so I can be more marketable in the job market plus it involve a raise at my job. I finished that on Sept 2010. The next journey is finishing the MBA degree I started when my mom took sick. Well, I can say on June 18, I will walk across that stage. The only regret is my mom is not here. That might be the reason why she wanted me to continue my degree so bad. She is the reason why I keep pushing. I have one class left after marketing but the University will allow me to walk because I had less than six credits left. It really has been a bless year with the ups and down. But what life without ups and down? I promise to blog about graduation. Also, will be blogging regularly after my last day of class on sept 5.

Mother's Day

Mother's Day is approaching and I am dreading every moment. This is the first time I will not have my mom is here this year, It hurts. I tried to find something to do with granny to get her mind off this on mother's day. I thought about visiting my mom's grave to see if her stone is out there on the ground. I will like to see that on mother's day as well. I having a hard time dealing with my mom's death now. I'm starting to realize that mom is really gone and she is not coming back.

Back at work part 2

I been on back on the phones for week and I am already of a write up. They wrote me off for taking to much time off when my mom died. I had already put the job above my mom needs and now they mad because I took to much time off. Then I fell two calls already. I mean Damn . What should I do? I already face the fact my mom is gone , now with my job spending out of control, what should I do?

Back at work

Back at work. Work does not seem the same to me as before. It different in a way. I feel doubts. Wonder if I can ever catch up or be able to meet all my stats.I put my mom's picture up and told co workers what happen to my mom. It's so hard to come home and not be able to tell her about my day at work. What I like the most about it and what made me mad. I miss her and wish I could hold her one last time. I want to tell my mommy that I love her and as promise I did take care of her to the end. Next question would be was she satisfied on the way I took care of her? I miss you mommy.

I started a clean sweep of the basement and garage. I starting to clear out the old and bring in the new. Trying to make home my home.

why did she had to die?

Well, my remedy for anger did not work . Again, me and granny had the biggest agrument. We argue all the time. She is old and for some reason i can not come to terms with her being old and ignore what she is saying. Then, my boyfriend got upset because I said I did not want to see super bad but i went with him anyways. That argument started when when I said he did not want to look at any of the "lovey dovey" movies that I rent. i going to have to turn it to Lord and pray because I am tired. I tired of pleasing everyone and trying to do everything right. I am tried of complaining. any suggestion to how to deal?

The remedy to Anger

What a great way to start of Valentine's Day by going to a spiritual place to receive a blessing. Today I was invite to friends and family day at the Christian Gospel Center. The topic was why are you angry? When I heard the topic, it was like a light bulb going off in my head. I knew it was meant for me to hear this message today. Pastor Elder Marcus R Ways Sr broke down the cause of anger. Anger is cause by 1)Comparison. Now I do often compare myself to other when I feel lonely and depress. I envy some of my friends who have family especially mothers that are still alive. I get envy of my friends who have that nice engineering job instead of phone job I have. Be grateful for what I do have. 2)Acceptance. I need to accept my situation. 3)Isolation. Stop going in the basement to be along or in my room. Try to working on being me. 4)Negatively. Stop being so negative. Love myself first. Respect myself.

Now here is the remedy REGNA ( which is anger backwards)
1) Request some spiritual Help ( For me request GOD help)
2) Exit from volatile situation . Run from situation that going to create anger.
3) GET OVER IT ( this is very Key)
4) Note the root cause of the anger ( Mine is I am not happy because I feel I should have certain things. This not the case)
5) Accept It. Accept who you are . You are you. Therefore, no one can tell you how to do you.

I thought I post this because this so true . I have a question why am I so angry. No one answer through the post but someone answer through the pastor and it was the LORD. Thank you Lord. I need to work on the remedy.