Mother's Day

Mother's Day is approaching and I am dreading every moment. This is the first time I will not have my mom is here this year, It hurts. I tried to find something to do with granny to get her mind off this on mother's day. I thought about visiting my mom's grave to see if her stone is out there on the ground. I will like to see that on mother's day as well. I having a hard time dealing with my mom's death now. I'm starting to realize that mom is really gone and she is not coming back.