Bereavement

Bereavement! what does that mean? I receive my first newsletter from Hospice since my mom passed. I not sure how i feel. I feel guilty so days, so days i feel lonely, and so i just feel hopeless. I have not return to work yet, therapist orders. My job are sending their threatening letters of information or be fired. Well, if they been through the hell that I been through they will understand that it just not that easy to return to work. Today, I took Mack ( mom's dog) to be groom. Then came back home to my wonderful ( submitted information or fire) letter from my employer. I guess life is not as simple. I went ahead and look at the Neely's. They were cooking a monte cristo, and fried zucchini. I very tempted to try this recipe. I am little nervous but I think the dish will be a success. My mind was off my daily stress for 30 minutes of the show. But once it ended the stress came back. Does anyone have any other ideas beside food network that might relax them during their time of sorrow?